Meltdowns

Today was a day of meltdowns. My son decided that he simply didn't and couldn't do his homework. My blood pressure probably rose instantly and that started a hot flash to end all flashes. So, as I am standing there dripping with sweat from my face down and peeling off layers of clothes, OK' just a jogging jacket, but it felt like layers,  and telling him the benefits of reading, writing, and math my mom then started weeping, part of her dementia and side affects of the medicines she's taking. She went from taking none to five in little over a month. So, I standing in the middle of the room sweating and taking off my jacket while on one side of the room having an endless hot flash, and my son on the other side of the room pouting because God forbid he had extra work to do when the only thing running through his mind was thoughts of him zooming through the neighborhood on his bike and my mom just sitting there weeping saying she now needed to go outside. I felt like crying too.

But, we all couldn't be crying all at the same time so I help back. First I tried to console my mom and tell her that outside is where she could go in a week or so when she's stronger. Then on to my stubborn son who was now just sitting there doing nothing but begging to go outside. After a few minutes which seemed like years, of telling him that you do what you have to do then you get to do what you want to do and realizing I sounded like my mother totally everyone was calm. 

I needed a long vacation after that and I took one, OK,not really, I locked myself in the bathroom for a minute and just sat there sweating and hoping the day would either get better or everyone would go to bed at 7 pm. Neither happened by the way.