Seasons of Life

When I had my first hot flash I had a friend I was talking to from one of those dating sites. I had signed up with this one about 5 or 6 years ago. I never expected much and glad I didn't. Granted, I was not on there night and day it was more like a pastime I would do when I was bored. So it was kind of surprising to come across a profile like Ted's. He was a year younger and I was pleasantly surprised when I found out we had a lot in common. We texted and talked almost every evening. One night when we were chatting I told him I though I just had a hot flash. He was shocked. He said no, I was too young. I laughed and thanked him for thinking I was too young. He really didn't see me as old or even older. But, I definitely was old enough and it was a definite flash of heat. 

He asked me questions I hadn't had answers to at the time. All I knew I was in need of a fan. The flash passed and I was sort of myself again until I one day got irritated with everyone in a ten mile radius for no good reason at  all. He and all the rest of the folks forgave me. I used to have mood swings with my periods but these were more intense. And sometimes I happen to cry at the oddest times. The other day I was watching the Princess and the Frog. Just happened to be flipping channels and it was on. I stopped on there it  was near the end when they got married. I sobbed like a baby. My son thought I was nuts but I told him they were happy tears. He was glad I wasn't sad. I was too.

But, my friend is no longer my friend. I am unsure why. I guess just  like the seasons of my life change friends change too. I am ready for all the changes. Such as life. And it would be pretty boring after all if nothing changed. :-)